While poking around on the internet today, I found a blog entry written by author Curtiss Ann Matlock that made me stop and think for a while. I decided to borrow her questions and ask them of myself.
What do I want? What do I really want out of life? I want to focus on something beyond the obvious.
Financial security, absolutely. But is that deep enough? I want financial security for all the reasons you might expect me to want it. I want to know where next month’s rent is coming from. I want to know that the I’ll be able to keep the lights on and the a/c humming. But I also want it so that I can give rather than take. There’s been some wisdom in this journey I’ve been on. No doubt about that, but my heart’s desire is to some day soon be able to give to others what people have given to me over the past couple of years – mostly, the peace of mind that comes from knowing where that next meal is coming from.
Increasing Wisdom, definitely. I want to avail myself of every opportunity for learning, and I want to make good use of what I learn. I want to make the world a better place, to touch people’s lives in ways they need their lives touched, not in ways I think they should have their lives touched. Curtiss Ann referenced a couple of scriptures from the New Testament—Luke 11:9-10. She used another version of the Bible, but I’m a die-hard KJV fan. Not really fond of the changes in language and meaning, not to mention scripture that’s been removed in the new “improved” versions.
9 And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.
The promise in that is pretty clear. If you really want wisdom, God will give it to you. Unfortunately, I’ve never known Him to flip a switch and make me brighter. He teaches through experience, so if you want to know a thing, be prepared to walk through the fire to learn it. The way is often difficult, but the destination is worth the journey.
True Joy. I’ve been praying for this for a number of years, and the way has often been hard. A few times, I’ve wondered exactly what God is thinking. I ask for joy, he gives me pain. But at the other end of the pain has always been increasing joy. Work through this difficult thing and step out of the darkness into light. Forgive what you previously thought unforgiveable, and step out of the cold into the warmth. So I’m keeping that one on my list this year.
This is getting pretty long, so I guess I’ll tackle the second question tomorrow! Light and love to you all!